Our New Frame of Reference

It used to be that I got annoyed when my Amazon Prime order didn't show up in a day or two.  I would get antsy when the line for a restaurant was more than a couple of tables deep. Heck, I'd get annoyed that the Kerig seemed to take a full 30 seconds to warm up and another entire minute to fill my cup.  That was in February, then March 2020 came, and with it the COVID pandemic.

I've spent a lot of time trying to figure out where the main source of anxiety is for me.  I feel it as keen as anyone but I can't seem to identify the source.  Is it a fear of the pain of illness, the finality of death?  Maybe it is simply the fear of the unknown, the inability to predict the future beyond tomorrow or the next day.  In any case, this anxiety is a burden.

Our units of measure have changed.  We have been conditioned to expect things faster and faster, easier and easier, with less effort.  The idea of 18 months for a vaccine is as incomprehensible to many people as is a trillion stimulus package. 

We are discovering things we have taken for granted for our entire lives like what the school day will be like in September.  The unknowing is agonizing.  There is no way to know.  It is not the simple case of not being told, it is unknowable right now.  The news media demagogues are relishing in the unknowing.  It is their lead story because it is true and accurate and brings consumers back to them day after day looking for answers.

There are no answers to be found.  We have to trust that it will get worked out and trust is a very rare commodity right now.  Trust requires faith and there is little faith in our leadership.  I will, I must, therefore, put my trust and faith in God.